here we go again, gonna try and blog every so often.
this will probably just become a record of the stresses and strains of the rest of my honours year.
Yeah so, honours year,
its horrible sometimes, as much fun as the social side of uni is, the amount of work is actually insane. so ive got my first submission of my honours project in a fortnight... its not gonna be a fun few weeks. but anythings worth a shot.


LJx

ever feel completely and utterly aimless?

Songs

As you may know, I would not survive without music.
Currently 2 songs by Relient K have been running though my head non-stop, so I thought i's share them with you.

Over thinking click here for video

i was thinking
over thinking
cause there's just too many scenarios
to analayze
look in my eyes
cause you're my dream please come true

i was thinking
over thinking
about exactly how i'm not exactly him
i'll break my heart in two
more times than you could ever do
cause you're my dream please come true

cause i think way too much
on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch
cause i'm so far behind

i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if there's one in this world,
you let me know you're not that girl

i was sinking
lower, sinking
cause i lost the things i held on to
they let me think a thought
a thought that i would know was not
of seeing my dream come true

i was thinking
over thinking
about how far i had let this go
one more guy/girl chiché
i know now you're just in the way
of me and my dream come true

cause i think way too much
on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch
cause i'm so far behind
i'm trying to make sense
out of all of this
while your fading scent
just slips through my grip

i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if there's one in this world,
you let me know you're not that girl

don't touch the positive with the negative end
don't touch the positive with the negative end
cause after all of the sparks you're still alone in the dark
cause after all of the sparks you're left alone in the dark

and while i'm able, i think i'll label
experience with you as a mistake
and while i'm at it, i'll say i've had it
experience with you is a mistake

cause i think way too much
on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch
cause i'm so far behind
i'm trying to make sense
out of all of this
while your fading scent
just slips through my grip

i was thinking
over thinking
cause there's just too many scenarios
to think about
to figure out
if you're my dream please come true




Which to bury, us or the Hatchet click here for video

I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget


and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened

And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for naught

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

and wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happened
and one day we'll see this come around)

what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...

Lent

Yeah so i realised that i said that i'd write up about what ive done when it comes to my lenten discipline (as my dad calls it) and i havent. sorry.
Ive found it alot harder than i thought. so i decided that i was gonna give time, not necessarily an hour everyday, some more some less. and over the past fortnight (roughly) ive kept doing this as much as i can.
I've :
tidied up about the house, made cups of tea without being asked (more difficult than realised), cleaned the kitchen (i mean really cleaned), helped mates with some things, and loads of other little things.
Intentionally ive not told everyone why ive been doing these things. cause im not gonna stop when it comes to easter. i think helping out, when i see that there is something that needs doing, is something that everyone should do, i know that in this day and age its alot harder to stop in the street and ask someone if they need a help, but as ive found, people are glad that you even ask.
Ive gotten alot more out of this that i thought i would, here goes another 4 weeks :P

Colour Quiz

Generated on Fri Feb 8 09:00:17 2008.
Laura's Existing Situation
Seeks to express the need for identification in a sensitive and intimate atmosphere where esthetic or emotional delicacy can be protected and nurtured.

Laura's Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.

Laura's Restrained Characteristics
Feels that she is burdened with more than her fair share of problems. However, she sticks to her goals and tries to overcome her difficulties by being flexible and accommodating.
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are.

Laura's Desired Objective
Strives for a life rich in activity and experience, and for a close bond offering emotional fulfillment.

Laura's Actual Problem
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

Laura's Actual Problem #2
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

Lent

This year for lent I have decided to give up an hour of my time everyday.
My aim is to give an hour a day to someone else, so during the hour i will try to do somethings to help someone else, however small the task, no gain for me at all. I'm sure i'll get through a week, then i wont have a clue what to do. So after a week or so, i will need to go out of my way to help.
This is gonna be a challenge for me, not that i dont help where i can, but that ive just started term 2 of my 3rd (and final possibly) year of uni, and i will have alot of work to do.
I'm going to 'log' how lent goes on here, and we'll see how it goes.
I have one minor bit of 'leway', if i miss a day, the hour will be caught up on later in the weeek, as mondays for me are jam-packed at uni.

Here goes nothing.

January Gathering

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